Nautilo

So today I was talking to my grandpa about his late wife (not my grandmother, his second wife). He was talking to me about the first time they met…and the look on his face was so heart-wrenching. She passed away from cancer a while ago, I don’t know how long but I had never met this woman. She was his true love though, he never loved anyone like he loved her. He talked to me about how compatible they were and about how wonderful she was. Then he started to talk about something he had never told me before, about her struggles with cancer before she died. How she was in so much pain and so much suffering. Just the way he spoke about it, how it affects him so much even now really was hard to see. She must have been a wonderful woman and I truly regret never having met her.

The point is though that I guess it gave me a little more compassion towards people who really, really believe in god and heaven. They really need to believe in this because they really need to believe the people that they love so much. So much to even put words to it is indescribable. They need to believe that these people who have suffered in life have moved on to a peaceful place where they will someday be reunited. Life would be unbearable for these believers if they didn’t think this or have this hope that they would be back in the arms of their beloved.

But it’s kind of sad. It’s kind of sad because isn’t the alternative even more beautiful? You had this fleeting moment with the most special person ever. They decided to spend that short time with you. They chose you for their tiny little life. Those moments you had together are so special because they can never be replicated, they only happened once, your love can never be copied, ruined, bastardized, filled with eternal boredom. One day you will be reunited, just maybe not in the way you had imagined. In fact, you’re united right now. The parts that make up your body and the parts that made up theirs are right here on this planet. It isn’t going anywhere. One day all your parts will be part of everything. Your consciousness only lasts during this short frame of time. So make the most of it. But all your pieces will forever be part of everything, eventually.